On Not Having a Clue

You know how when you’re a kid, and everyone tells you to follow your dreams and do what you love? It’s a truly, beautiful, wonderful thing, when people say that and mean it. And more wonderful still, when people do it.

But what if you don’t have a dream?

I’m not sure how many people are out there in the world with this dilemma, but I’m living it. There are many things that I enjoy doing and like, and even love to do. Sewing, dancing, playing my guitar, singing, linguistics, talking about occult literature, and the list goes on. Any one of those things, I could see myself doing full-time as a profession. So how do you follow a dream, when you don’t have one? When you don’t have that one thing that you’ve always wanted to do your entire (or at least most of) life?

I’ve just turned 25, and can say with conviction that up to this point in my life, I’ve wanted to do everything from bat research to singer, to professional belly dancer and geologist. I could be a professor of occult literature, or costume designer, or research indigenous languages in Central America. Where does that leave me? In a bit of a pickle. Especially when I am now beginning to feel the pressure of others weigh upon me, to choose, to do, to be this or that.

But I’m saying that I don’t have a clue. The only thing I’ve ever really thought or dreamed about doing my entire life is traveling. I never thought about what I would do, just where I would do it. Brussels, Tokyo, Buenos Aires…I’ve only ever thought about being in other places. Is it pure escapism or something more? I’m not sure. And I’m confessing right here that I have no idea what I’m doing, nor where I’m going, and to be really honest, I feel okay with that at the moment. Some might think it’s out of character for me, or that I need to “grow up” or whatever else. But if you don’t live your life on your own terms, then what’s the point, right?

So here I am, finally ready to start this blog. Anyone who knows me knows that I love to talk, hence why I found the title of this blog to be so very appropriate. I’m here, there, and everywhere. I hope to include all manner of adventures, big and small, and all manner of ventures, big and small. I hope to practice my photography skills (or actually just have any to begin with), and maybe connect with people who are also in my same situation. Join me, and maybe we’ll figure all of this out together 🙂




2 Comments Add yours

  1. Harri says:

    Did I ever tell you I had this same problem? It was “solved” when I – honestly quite accidentally – got a job i can hold on to. Now I don’t have time to dream so much and living a somewhat normal life is feasible. But I’m still dreaming. There’s a big difference between you and me: you’ll get it done, whatever it is. Well, we already know what it is. I read your next post and it sounds very exciting 🙂


  2. We travel not to escape life, but for life not to escape us. It’s also one of the most eye-opening experiences you will ever have. It can tell you things about yourself you didn’t know and show you things you didn’t even know you cared about! Happy blogging 🙂


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